Banquao's Ghost

I will remember today as the day I realized that the things I do have consequences to them. Today I saw Banquaos ghost and it was the most shocking moment of my life. Many things were going through my head at the time. Madness, fear, regrets. I couldn`t control my words. Seeing my good friend all bloody and my brain reminding that it was me who had him killed just was too painful. I went into a state of madness and embarrassed myself and my wife in front of the Lord’s. The things I have done to get this far... sometimes I dream of things I cannot explain... sometimes I even think about if I really should of done what I did to gain all of this.. Is it really worth it? That question is asked a lot in my mind now. It is me seeing Banquaos ghost that has pushed me off the edge. Is Banquao haunting me? Am I going crazy? Is this karma? So many questions but no answers. My wife is really mad at me for making a fool of us in front of the lords but I have other things to worry about then what people think about me. I don’t think things can get any worse but I have a feeling that consequences for my wrong doings are coming my way. I still can’t get the picture of the Banquao I seen today out of my head. The blood... The hatred and anger I can see in his eyes.  He is asking why I betrayed him. I think I’m losing my mind just a little bit. I just need some good old sleep to relax the tension in my body. I just hope I get better from today... but I have a feeling that things are going to get worse.